Ellie-Jean and Zach on WhatsApp 8/29/26, 5:21:39 AM

Okay. What’s going on. Why am I feeling like I’m disappointing you, like I’m in trouble, like I’ve done something wrong? I don’t know how much more communication I can give.

I’m sleeping im sorry for whatev it us I did

Good. How are you just woke up

I couldn’t quite understand what you said just then they said what exactly? Now don’t get ripped offf like a Hayden girl?

No I couldn’t understand

Who Canadian girl

Is it a saying

True

Nice

Where’s that

Very nice

Would fucking love a coffee

Need to stop being paranoid we are good

Just doing heaps of stuff for my mental health

IDC honestly anywhere

Coffee + a 2 sweet tweets

Yeah perfect

Can always rely on the Coffey club

Fuck yeah

Miss yours too

I understand, what I’m asking is for you to grasp the severity of where I’m at mentally. So you know about addiction and mental health. Your brother & I relapsed like within days of each other and I did hear you say something to the effect of (talking about Jess) “she thinks having an adderall is bad for his sobriety”. So technically I’m not dual diagnosis but every addict in my opinion must be careful with any dual drugs. Opioids I’ve been clean since 2016. But/however alcohol is not great to relapse on because it makes me unwell. How is your brother doing? He’s been on my mind so much. He went from being with you and Jess to suddenly relapsing and then single and alone. I keep thinking about his mental state and how horrible it must be. For me I am so privileged, so lucky, so fucking grateful my country simply where I was born takes mental health seriously.

I’m glad he did. It would have been too hard to be alone in that state and I had hoped he had someone. It’s brutal he relapsed & you fight with her than took off. He wasn’t left with many if any resources. It’s not like he can go to a luxurious rehabilitation centre but that’s what he needs in my opinion.

So yeah until I’m back to square one I’m just following orders doctors are giving me. I speak with Dr hardy & Dr Shelby this afternoon and I spoke with Dr Williamson this morning.

Most days he smoked though as did you and you don’t mind a drink……..

Oh totally

I know. Everyone does

Mmhmmm

Good to be self aware

I am doing eft & emdr

What?

Oh my god

My life is on the line and all you can think about is a relationship.
Considering you used to work at a rehab I’d think you know the stats or data surrounding % of ppl who remain sober I will drop you in a split second. I am part of the data that shows it works, if you keep this bullshit up if you keep harassing me to talk lovey dovey and call when I’m trying to get through the day I’m done

TRY to think about someone else try to think from someone else’s point of view

I’m extremely frustrated you want all of my attention and you don’t seem to understand what I’m going through

You’re projecting. How can you say that? Why does everything have to feel like pulling teeth? Zac a relapse is serious to me. I have lots of important steps and safety measures so that I can get myself on the right track. Instead of understanding that and supporting me you are questioning my loyalty you’ve made several references to me being like some other girl who sent you videos for money in return, told your friends or they told you just like your bookkeeper that I’m like her. I don’t know what to do.
My journey with sobriety is important. If you can’t accept that I don’t know what to do.

You worked at a clinic. 2 correct?
Heard of ever heard of the term “relapse prevention” “relapse intervention” “DBT/CBT” “EMDR” all of these systems are emotional outreach during intense periods of struggling with mental health & addiction issues.

Zac. What I am dealing with, with the utmost respect, is up to me to share or not to share. You are requesting access for more information on what I’m going through and when I try to put a boundary in place in a kind way or in a firm way it seems like you will not take any of what I am communicating to you as an answer. If you would like more information on what I’m going through even though I have sent extensive information data I’ve provided my background my history my personal experiences, the only thing I can offer is perhaps turning to a friend or a therapist to discuss in depth how you’re feeling. You can use AI, you can speak with your former colleagues at cliffside or passages about inpatient treatment and what that entails. I can’t emotionally be held in this feedback loop to your daily negative thought patterns about me. I have given you more than enough information I have even gone so far as to give you my personal doctors names. And still it is not good enough for you. I have given you time schedules of exactly who I’m speaking to and what time, what it is that I am doing, what they are prescribing me as homework to get on the right track. And because I can’t be happy Ellie and put on a face you are spiralling giving me whiplash. It is causing me stress. I am feeling stressed. Are you able to accept that this has nothing to do with you? Are you able to accept that majority of my day is about getting back into a healthy routine as an outpatient? Are you able to accept that it is not healthy for me to be focused on anything other than getting back to square one?

I don’t feel comfortable doing an outpatient program with you making passive aggressive comments, questioning my actions, demanding to understand things and when provided information it being not good enough, and essentially having to listen to the narrative you are telling me is ongoing that is not true

Jesus Christ

I don’t know what to say. I’ve said everything I could. Insane accusations.

Your continued projection on what you deem to be the narrative is delusional. You think I have no one around that cares for my mental well being. I have my dad who is becoming very very very very close to calling you, I have my sister, my doctors, my friends. These are people that can help. What are you doing by helping you have caused more stress if anything

Projection. How is that a threat? Explain?

I can’t do this again not today. You love to argue and I cannot do it

It’s not good for my mental health

YES!

Unless you would like to offer support, then I cannot go around and around and around with passive aggressive comments, accusations, pressure, I can’t do it

Oh. My. God.

This is not what support is

You want a call? You just have to push and push and push

Support looks like “EMDR is fantastic and I’m happy you’re doing it”

“I hope today is better than yesterday”

“Just checking in…. Thinking about you 🫶🏼”

It’s a fucking relapse zac.

I don’t want to die.

Read the fucking data on this shit

You worked at these places yet relapse seems to be not that serious to you?!?????

It’s a fucking relapse!!!!!

And I’m not doing that. But I have been instructed to cease all activities involving tech, every upload is done by Holly for my socials. No video games. No doom scrolling. These are active practices in my doctors heavy recommendations they aren’t even recommended they’re fucking orders

I’ve skipped EMDR therapy because we’ve talked this long

Which I’m not blaming you. But it doesn’t help.

I HAVENT VEEB ON SOCIAL MEDIA AT APP

ALL

I AM SHOCKED YOU THUNK I BAVE BEEN???????????

That’s weird that you are seeing when I’m active online that’s strange and what I would deem as inappropriate

I don’t like that.

I don’t like that at all

BEFORE I FUCKING RELAPSED

and informed you heavily of my plans moving forward

Also…. I MISSED EMDR THERAPY…. does that matter to you???????????

Sound happy as a clam

I just feel frustrated doing circles every day because I’m not behaving in a way that you want me to

Hmm. I like talking to. Do you know what else I like? Being alive. Not waking up hungover with suicidal thoughts

If you’re well versed in psychology as you’ve stated & well versed in addiction then what does this mean?
“If missing Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing therapy is important to you… it’s important to me 🤟”. Like?????????

I MISSED THE APPOINTMENT BECAYSE IVE BEEN ACTIVWTING MY FYCKING CORTISOL ARGHING WITH YIU TO TRY TO STOP VILLAINISING ME AND YNDERSTAND WHERE I AN AT

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What more can I do to coddle your feelings and put my own getting better aside?

Sorry to be blunt but my idk…my LIFE IS ON THE LINE