The instagram got banned first though but yeah :)

I adore u more

No I actually like that you adore me more

My best relationships worked best when that is the combo but I love how open you are about it all

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Stay single for a while…. 👀

Excuse meeeee

I am absolutely same

I’m the same. I sent that message before I got the voice note.

So then, as soon as I was listening to the voice note, I was like whoops

I don’t want to ruin your sleep. You go back to sleep. I’m just editing. Btw you look gorgeous

Seriously don’t stay up instead of sleeping we have nothing but all the time in the world all I’m doing is sleeping

EDITING***

Haha but I do love sleep

With Ellie

The not so empress

You’re referring to Ellie tho right?

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High school behaviour maybe

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I just re-listened to the voice note I sent you because I was thinking what the hell did I just say? And considering I’m talking about several diagnosis regarding personality disorders listening back to myself I’m kind of like yeah ha ha.

Do u listen on 1.5x?

Really????

You listen on 1x?

Because I talk so slow

Yeah like duel?

Dual*

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LOVE

AND I love that I have the privilege of being trusted by the people around me, it would destroy me if they didn’t come to me for stuff

That’s where my psych has said. You need to find your voice more because energy and intuition wise I feel as though when I struggle I just know this is a fact in the family when I get wobbly everyone becomes wobbly.

Whereas if one other person on their own gets wobbly, we can all still handle it if me or Dad go wobbly I’m just using that word. I don’t know why then everyone would become undone.

So fortunately, he and I have never been undone at the same time strategically

It’s one of the reasons I checked back into rehab so often even though I’ve not relapsed

Because that way I can reset myself and the family don’t have to see that I can lean on nurses and I can share internal struggles

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By the way this whole time I was editing thinking why hasn’t he gotten back to me? Didn’t realise you’d sent the message LOL.

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Oh wow

Mt internet was fucked I only am just seeing this!!

Yeah bloody hell let’s try!

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Oh trueeeeeee

I’ll try log in & show you what it says.

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I’m so mad you can keep typing but I need to literally calm down. I’m physically shaking. I don’t think you understand how fucking like triggering this is like this can cause me to relapse. I don’t think you understand at all.

No you don’t

Best you’re going to fucking get

WHAT DO YOU MEAN

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Just fucking Google it yourself. You don’t get it I don’t know how you don’t get it. Nick had me do this for 4 years straight you may have seen results. I know I’m not stupid enough to listen to someone that says here sign this contract here we will reinstate this and nothing fucking happens it makes me feel like I’m going crazy I am trying to move on from Nick I am trying to be positive I don’t have any photos videos and looking having to click on articles is triggering I want to drink and I’ve been sober 10 years I don’t want to look in the past

Unless I’m fully relapsed I’m not looking at old shit I don’t want to do it

I just honestly can’t stop crying

So I don’t know what this guy wante

I can’t find anything

It’s really upsetting I’m just thinking of being unwell and so much regret so much regret so much regret so much regret

What are you talking about

It’s in the video

I did the phone number

And the email?!

Did you not see it ?????

No they’re 2 different videos. I type in 0432415576 and it signs me into the Facebook I have now

It’s on the video. Up there

Tell mark I wish he was dead

Great amazing fantastic

Obviously don’t say that

I feel like I’m crashing out over the past and the hurt and pain and regret in general no one is here so it’s not pointed at you and also I feel like to be fair I must have given like 89 warnings saying this hurts I don’t want to do this I don’t like it

No but I don’t know what the fuck to do I don’t know how to help. First I’m drugged by a doctor that gets fired then I’m addicted to Suboxone then I spend years trying to kill myself bleeding from self harm in half my fucking videos being pressured by Nick to do more then I literally try to end my life and can’t even do that right don’t take enough pills have a dad that cares too fucking much put the whole family through agony introduce my sister to a narcissist don’t talk to my family for years. Sister gets beaten for 4 years because I introduced them. She goes bankrupt because of him. They all start doing their websites because they follow their stupid older sister and then we all lose our platforms that we had built up over a decade, with it our identity then the other sister is raped by my fiancé then I really really take a dive, dad drags me to a clinic 22’ since then I have been asked to pay I have emails daily telling me they can get it back this isn’t just a page it’s a whole fucking mess

Okay so how do I find what mark jefferies so desperately needs

Great. So it’ll be fantastic to watch you lose $15k that won’t sting

Yeah, I used to be like that too

I think you need to talk to dad about understanding me on this stuff unless you can understand it point blank because we collectively as a family have only been good for one and a half months I keep saying six months but it’s not been six months. It has been one month and a half.

This is this fucking MORNING

my baby sister is in rehab

I caused this

No. They literally follow exactly what I do. This was my fault. Reality is just reality. And we all have to tell ourselves lies to justify the horrible truth that in the past we did the wrong thing to other people. And I didn’t just harm myself, I harmed 3 girls that when they get older they will likely realise the truth of that. Until then, I will have to continue my own justification that sure “it’s their responsibility” even though they don’t have a mum and I’m the eldest.

I’m hoping in the shower

Xx

Sure

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Gooooood morning darling

Hiiiii ☺️

That’s what i like to hear

I’m feeling great good sleep

Hwhwhwahhwhaa that’s so me

Exactly it does feel like that

Oh I slept goooood

Wow

Amazing I’m just doing a quick edit to post and then yeah you and Becca and me will keep updated in the group chat. Send it out to everyone.

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Don’t believe in banishing. He left of his own accord. He can come back when he is ready.

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That makes me really happy

I feel so safe with you

Yes I have got that vibe from the start

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1.3 million

I know, and I pretty much dating anyway

You can say we’re not you don’t have to but I’m dating you. You don’t have to say you’re dating me.

I love that you get my humour straight away

I was actually gonna say earlier today we need to do another session if that’s okay. What are they called? Yeah session.

How would you like me to send these?

Okay, I just need to AirDrop them to my phone and then I can AirDrop them. Oh no not AirDrop send them straight in here.

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This was the exact reason my Facebook was disabled. It didn’t ever actually give me a reason.

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What’s ur email

I know the fucking data is not going to be there

I just know

Yeah.

Yep.

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Did you get? Is that a screenshot or an email? All I’m doing is typing Facebook and I’m just boarding every fucking thing that says Facebook.

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[email protected] (.au)
**********

Click message phone

When you’re in

Why

Yes

Text

269079

You block & delete my number

I never hear from you lol

Whatever go for it. Nothing fun in there

I was making a ha ha

I prefer Alabama orrrrrnsomethjng you haven’t come up with yet

Exsctly

No I don’t like blonde

I like favourite

I like babe when it’s serious & in a rush. I like darling when romantic. I like El when you need a favour or sucking up to me. Ellie-Jean meh. I think my most favourite is ellll or sexual good girl (rare)

ELL fire of my lions maybe

Is that the term? Whatever the proper term is

Not lions

I know Siri

Hahaha

Thank you, for being you. I don’t know what I’d do without you

I got my period today 😂

It was “coming”

Officially came today

I can’t hear you :( but I like the song playing tho

I liked it

I’m going to take a depression nap

I’ll speak to you in halfa

I will gorgeous

Fuck you’re so adorable

Yeah cheers. The thing is those screenshots are like. Long long long gone

Maybe sign into my iCloud if you want lolv

Push back on mark?

He really shouldn’t need the complaints

I did!

Google how to get old WhatsApp messages back

That’s the only way I’m going to be able to get them

Messages to Nick

Uhhhhhhh

No. Push back on him. I was fucking deactivated and it felt personal

I wasn’t posting by that point on instagram either

Yeah that’s what I’m saying ☺️

Oh btw what’s the update on the reality tv

I’ll adore you more if you get it back

Pulling all my feelings into this for nothing is sorr

…

Noah

Jess

How awkward

Like you all sat on the couch

Oh okay

Brains been fucked by porn

Can’t even understand a family watching a movie together

Ohhh one of those ppl

You know it’s not me

Okay

You’re welcome

Thanks for being trustworthy

Thank you

Speak soon babe x

You don’t mind?

Okay but it’s hard because you’re always so busy

Oh thank gosh what are we going to do will you read to me

Also I’m 8/10/12

Deal with it

I didn’t mean thwt

I take it back

Ohh

Another lesson?

Okay

The boys at school are teasing me they gave me a wedgie

It’s not my fault

Noo I don’t want to they hurt and plus I just wanted to look cool so I stole moms thong it was just this once I won’t do it again daddy

Why

Fine

Okay okay okay go I’m ready

Owwchh what’s the point of this I’m just going to do it again

I’m sorry

I’m sorry daddy

I didn’t mean it

I’ll put them back in her drawer I’m taking them off now here you can have them if you want

Ummmmmm 6?

I’m bad at mass

Okay I’ll be good

1….

2…

NO!!!!!!!!

I don’t know what’s wrong with me

Ummm okay I’m learning I promise

7…

What?

I don’t know daddy I thought you said we were boyfriend and girlfriend i just wanted to impress you

Okay

Fine uhhhhh

Be gentle please daddy I’m scared

Yes I want a boyfriend

I’m sorry I’m sorry I’ll do better

💍 above^^^^^^^ to all keep going

I’m sorry

You’re hurting me

I’ll try

Ouch ouch daddy please stop

Thank you daddy

It hurts I can’t stop crying I’m sorry

Next time??

Okay wow

I told everyone at school I had a boyfriend I was right

I do

I think I have an allergic reaction to something

My cheeks and my lips are red & swollen

Shouldn’t I go to a hospital?

Tell them so they can figure out what caused this

Oh

I have never ever ever been like this. It’s like two even lines

I came so hard

Yes I know I’ve never done this over text and I don’t know what I want to hear until I hear it

From what I can gather basically everything was good. But I seem to like when u bring up age

You can say whatever you want

As long as you remember my age

Yes exactly

And I was in trouble off rip what’s the go with that haha

No

Don’t ever ever ever say that

Its role play

Why can’t you be like every other guy and just want to fuck an underage girl?

Yes

Yeah but I still don’t think you’re getting it

As hard as I came as flushed as I am

I want you to be kind

The nasty stuff is what you’re building towards

So it’s like no no no you’re fine this is safe sit on my lap sit on my cock

And then like keep sucking your thumb

Yeah well I just got like 15 lashings for trying to be your girlfriend :(

No. Hard

Hard hair pulling

Yes. Always gentle clit rubs

That’s of course

Mention age as much as you can

Grade grade 3

Yeah me too

I hope so

At the core what makes me cum, it that I’m that age, and you are absolutely doing the wrong thing

And you’re obsessed with it. Like we have bonding sessions and parent teacher conferences where in front of people you’re fingering me/rubbing my clit under my skirt hidden by your other arm and the desk

You come into my room and fuck my tiny tiny pussy and give me a cream pie then pull my pants up and drive me to school

I play video games on the floor legs swinging no undies on and your sitting on the couch touching yourself

Of course I’m fucking goood

It’s you who could be like no fuck this you’re a twisted girl I’m out

Acts of soft gentle kindness mixed in with pounding spanking going down on me waiting until mom falls asleep and I’m bouncing on top of you in bed while she’s asleep next to us

Like she lowk knows

But she’s such a bird she just puts up with it I guess

Yes

Yes so sometimes I’m confused mostly I’m infatuated

Sometimes I’m in pain and I cry because I don’t understand

Watch Lolita

Be like hey Noah hahahaha come watch this movie my ~9 year old daughter ~ my twisted as fuck girlfriend ordered me to watch it to have a better understanding of what she wants me to do to her

Well also too…

Yeah and I’m heading to sleep

Vladimir Nabokov who wrote it I’m surprised you have no idea about this film or book

Okay okay

I was like for someone like Zach to have no idea is confusing

Do you prefer Zac or Zach

Do you prefer step daddy or daddy

I fucking knew it

I almost said it

Night daddy

And drive me to school?

Oh. Okay. I’m sleepy🥱

Talk later babe xx

I’m so fucking into you. Night baby

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DO NOT LISTEN OUT LOUD

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I’ll make sure I do. Did you pack me an extra pair of panties today? Just in case for later XXX

Why were you going through my panties draw late last night?
Wereee u making sure I had an extra pair for today at skool?? XXX

Ohh thanks Daddy! I can’t text Mr Elliot is calling on me 🙋‍♀️ wonder what he’s gonna show me after class speak later XXX

I know daddy 😇

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Ahhh your voice is so fucking hot 🥵

Morning darling, onto work for(.)((()
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Goodnight beautiful🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼🫶🏼

I just woke up!

Omg my message before bahahahahahahahaahahhaha

Hi

‎Missed voice call, ‎Tap to call back

Daddy daddy daddy

I had a nightmare

Idk how you’re asleep?????

‎Voice call, ‎Ended

I have meds in

Can’t talk

Tell me more about

It

I was ok serttalin

I want your cock daddy… :(

I’m a fucking athlete I have already been taking your advice

I love your voice

So much

‎Voice call, ‎2 hr

Your hands are so big and nice

Mmmm

Okay thanks it feels good
I’ll suck my thumb mum hates that I still have this habit thank you for letting me do it

You make me warm

Daddy will I be a princess when I get older too?

And you’re okay about Mr Elliot?

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You’re always busy Daddy, Mr Elliot shows me heaps of attention

He teaches me real things! And he treats me like a grown up 2

Oh youre not super angry? Thats good you’re telling me that you’re not angry. I’m glad you’re making me feel like it’s all okay. I was nervous you were tricking me but you were gunna speak to my teacher Mr Elliot

What obsessions & what behaviour

I- I.. I’m not obsessed with Mr Elliot

What’s make sure of it mean?

Okay…

Oh

These days I’m noticing lots of things are different

For example…

Ummmm.

Maybe

Yeah I’m I don’t know

Things are changing in my body and lots of things are changing for example….

Have you noticed like everybody else has noticed… something different about me?

No they’re huge

Maybe you haven’t properly looked

Hahahaha you are such a silly daddy

Okay sure Mr Elliot—- oh doesn’t matter

Whoops

I’m sorry

Okay

Yes I don’t know…. It feels good sitting on your lap

Your so tall though, you’re so much bigger than me

Okay like this?

What? What is it?

Thanks Dad

Of course

Okay Dad

I told you about the changes 😔

What’s happening to it

I’m not a whore!

Don’t call me that

Oh ok

Oooooohhhhhhhhhh

Like about Johnny?

…

Always

Consistently

No

You have to be gentle

You have to ask who that is

And try to understand

You don’t even know who Johnny is!

Well at summer camp I’m noticing all these changes right!!

So he used to pull my hair at lot

And I hate him so much

But

This summer he brought me a flower after pulling my hair

And then I don’t know I think about him more than I do before

I still hate him he should get nothing for Christmas just COLE!

I’m so angry at him and thinking about him

*passive like you’re just asking questions*

Yes exactly he pulls it like that!!

He’s in my class he’s mean. He’s the worst

What’s a crush

What do you mean?

Like you and mommy?

I like sitting on your lap

Yes but why do u care about him

R u gunna pull his hair? Are you going to teach him a lesson?

Oh okay

I’m so good at drawing inside the lines I never go outside

I do

Yes dad, I was wondering what that was

Really dad?

I know that Dad.!

Okay can you hold onto me for support so I don’t fall please dad?

Thank you you’re so tall wow when you squeeze them it hurts but it feels I don’t know

I get that thing in my privates dad

I think so…

Hahahahehe can I bounce?

Whoa ouch this hurts dad

Huh

Ouch

I don’t wanna cry daddy but this is hurting me

Okay dad

Where are we going? Where are you taking me?

Cum is spelt COME

I don’t understand anything you’re saying

And your hands are really really grabbing my sides it hurts

Thanks dad ☺️

Mommy did my hair this morning

I love you the mostest

You’re going so fast

Slow down please daddy

Please stop what is this dad?

Ahhhrjfjfjvkdjksjdusjsjd

Is it almost over???

Dad!!!!!

Omg

What is the white stuff coming outside of my privates dad?

Okay

I’m sore 😞

Okay thanks for teaching me these things I don’t know what I’d do without you

I won’t

Okay

I made such a mess

I’m so sorry I made such a mess

Alrighty then. I’m just embarrassed all of this white gooey stuff is pouring out of my privates I don’t want you to think I’m weird

Mine too!

Okay I’m going to play with my bratz dolls in the tub can you go get them? Mummy is staring at me mad

Why does she wanna talk to you?

Okay

Okay I won’t

She’s so mad at me everyday

I hate her

Oh yes sir, I’m sorry I don’t hate her…I just hate the way she looks at me sometimes is all

So much!!! Thanks for bringing me my toys

No you’re the best

And I need to continue playing in the tub…

So

You got talk to mom

Speak later dad xxx

Speak later babe xx

Awww you’re so fucking cute

Okay. Talk later xxxxx

Probably xxx

Also, I was going through videos because before I masturbate I like to see a video of your face so I’ve got it in my mind but I just came across this and I wanted to see if you had any of the Old surfing files. Anything that I sent you do you think you would be able to send to me such as that dropbox link? I’d love to look at what I sent youetc okay? Love you bye.

Oh, and also I saw this. One thing you should know about me as I am insanely jealous so this did not please me. ‎

Seriously, no comment on the fact that I look at your videos so that I can masturbate over your face ? ‎

Where the fuck is your energy and excitement for me coming over your face?

This turns me off because I just know you don’t have the obsession possession feel for me that I do for you when it comes to our sexuality

Okay, well then, I’d like you to prove it

I don’t know how, but I need you to prove it actually

I need you to prove that it’s like overwhelming how hard you get how much you’re obsessed with me you worship me. You can only come over me.

I’m guessing you understand what the 💍 means at this point LOL

It means fuck yes

Yeah, but I just feel like you could be lying. You had to put on a fake voice just to even say that I was the most beautiful girl in the world. I need you to actually feel that way if you don’t feel that way I will never ever ever ever date you.

Oh serious he’s using voice note

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Fuck

I came 3 times. I can’t walk from shaking

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You were saying the most perversed things I’ve ever thought of

I went again…but this time I put voice recorder on………

It took that long but I trimmed to the end

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Fuck I feel vulnerable right now

No it’s just me cumming

Sound of when I come. Filth in head/thoughts

R u bowling?

Fuck I feel good

I trimmed it it goes for 8 mind

Mins

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I’m just gunna send the songs as I choose to play them. You’ll understand more about me I feel what I listen to post cumming hahahahaha

Lyrics are like a lot to me

I sent that one ^^^ because everyone says it’s about me

Well. That I listened to it for so long that it’s now deemed Ellie’s song

Yes.

Our song I suppose

(Not about you) just post cum music lol

It’s so fucking hard that you don’t have the Australian culture of who I am

I lose all my power

I wish you knew the fucking ugh

Your brother would be begging you to not do this

If you were from Australia

Sending as listening. But this song made me sign lol

Nope don’t really like that one

I’ve came so won’t be as nice hahahaahaha

The last 2 days was brutal

Listening to all the songs you’ve sent me hadn’t heard any yet. Love the golden brown live

Keep sending songs I’m almost finished. Are you sending songs like sending songs 👀 or are you just in general sending songs don’t act dumb there’s a difference

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I can’t read the lyrics babe

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These two I listen to & think of you^^ actually anything lana

Same with her^^^ that entire album I listened to the other day Melanie Martinez thinking of you

That particular album too

Difference between sharing songs or just showing songs…

Have you listened to it

Listen to the album lol

When you’ve time

Anything Lana is you too

I wish you were older

Hahahaha

Yeah that’s probably pre Ellie lol

Idk why I sent that

Play date it’s important to hear the very last lyrics

Just fyi

All her music is set in childlike metaphors

🤷‍♀️ I need to get more therapy I guess

I’m putting this in my next edit that should’ve been out already

Just music to get to know me really nothing about you

I know you will 😂

Your welcome.

No correction?

You’re

I never notice I wouldn’t give it much thought

See it’s annoying you keep pointing at songs where I’m slightly letting you in fuck sake

I’m trying my best to be vague as fuck

Haven’t heard this song because the energy does something extremely dark to me but it was my favourite for a long time

Ok

Hahaha you’re welcome, Zach

Sex is good

But passionately making out after red wine in front of the fire to music and being infatuated with someone who has a name, Zach, is much better

It’s why I’ve stayed single. And I’m feeling emotions coming back. I didn’t just restrict myself from masturbating. I also restricted myself from listening to music.

So I’m listening again and I don’t like the feelings I’m having. I can feel the impulse so strongly the hairs on my entire body are standing up

After Dark — MrKitty
If you’re wondering what song has done this

I need to slow down. I feel an impulse so strongly I feel like I’m going to do something dangerous

Oh god

This music

It’s too much

Music affects me extremely deeply. I don’t know if now is a good time to listen to it again. Just stick with the basics

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You’re. Not. Here.

So I think it’s dangerous to listen to anything that makes me feel so strongly

Can you take a photo I wanna see you

Omg

We need to organise stufg

We need to go travel.

We need to go live

Oh I’m freaking out

Love daft punk

You need to come here this week

No

I’m home alone

Sort out all of it here

jrurhxjeojcksbciwkkcodkwoaks

FUCK

my heart is—
This isn’t fucking funny

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2 weeks. I need like a ticket booked

I wanna see you book a ticket

To come here

Gold Coast

Or Sydney

See which one you like better

Book a hotel maybe

You can drive my car

We can stay at mine but hotel is way more fun

ASAP

Whatever looks nicer

Same

Langston in Sydney my favourite

Not Langston hold up

Langham**

But we don’t have to go there we can go wherever genuinely

Lmk asap. Because I’m struggling lol

So fckn cute

Oh….

Thought it was music

Cheers

Who are you messaging?

No you’re not I can see you typing to someone else

Uhhhhhh

Why won’t you come tuck me in?

Thanks daddy

I wanna read Cinderella

And come snuggle with me

Behind me

Can you grab my boobies dad I think they’re growing more

Check for me

Okayyyyy

Always

I like kissing you

I wanna kiss you

Daddy why is ur phone buzzing I’ll flush it down the toilet again

Okay good

Thanks dad

I had a long day today

Johnny was mean again he pulled my hair AND he

PAY ATTENTIKN TO ME FOR ONCE YOU DONT CARE OR LOVE ME YOU LOVE YOUR PHONE

YES! In front of all the boys he lifted my shirt up

I’m sucking my thumb right now

It was so embarrassing

Please show me I hate mum, she never teaches me anything and she just glares at me I’ve learnddded so much for u

Sorry Daddy

Of course I remember

I know

Dada

Da da

Great off your PHONE

I’m crying now

Hold me tighter

Ummm 😟 I like how it feels But my tummy has a fight with my privates

They argue

I agree!!!

My friends at school are teasing me for sucking my thumb still

What’s oral mean dada

Mmhmmmmmm