And then you turn around and say you just wanted to fight

No no no no no no look at the timeline look at the messages. You can’t provoke someone by attributing their characteristics by a multitude of people accuse them of turning on you of being angry at you and then when they go to defend themselves, accuse them of being feisty wanting to fight wanting to do all of these things.

Oh my god

You have such an interesting dynamic with reality

I did not contact you

I was on my way to therapy

You reached out accusing me

Of several things

Instead of going to therapy, I sat down and explained myself

After extensively explaining myself, you turn around and tell me that I just wanted to start a fight

Are you able to see how wrong you are?

So instead of engaging with what I’m saying you’re going to shift into sarcastic mode

Is that it?

Zach, I miss not wanting to kill myself

And you’re over here laughing making stupid comments accusing me of being a person I’m not

I don’t even know where to begin

I’m mentally unwell and you continuously pester reach out passive aggressively say nasty fucking things that come from sources I can’t verify

I don’t know what I can do

What do you want from me?

If you believe for one second that I think those people said that unprompted you still just do not know who I am. I know exactly what you would’ve said. I know how you speak about your friends. I can only imagine what you speak about me.

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Sooooo dramatic

No response?

I am suicidal

I am in on an addictive treatment plan.

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Okay

Well atleast we can say that this conversation was productive

We’ve got somewhere

Your core values don’t align with mine. I feel indifferent towards you and I’ve stated those reasons well reason

Did you not listen to my voice note

You responded

So I don’t know why you are saying wow

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You’ve said you have experience in this area. I’d like you to use AI Claude and get back to me.

Oh my god

Oh my god

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Fucking insane

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You have pushed.

You have poked.

You have consistently undermined what I’m going through

You said just because I’m suicidal how dare I fucking lash out to you

YOU ARE GETTING IN THE FUCKING WAY

THIS IS WHY I HAVE SAID PLEASE STOP

I DO NOT WANT THIS TO INTERFERE WITH OUR RELATIONSHIP

FOR DAYS NOW YOU HAVE SAID “WE MUST DISCUSS THIS” AND I NEED YOU TO STOP

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Gunna go have shower

I don’t know what I would have done if you hadn’t looked up the AI… I’m so tired. I feel exhausted. But I do really care about you

I’m so tired all the time but so wired

I am strong

I am beautiful

I am smart

I am a good person

Everything is going to be okay

Everything is going to be okay

Im falling asleep

I think AI actually might help in this case

I think if you ever feel an emotion that you can’t name you should go to AI before me

I love you

I know that

Right now I’m just struggling to love me

I don’t wanna talk anymore about it. The mh stuff. I spend all day talking about it lol

‎Missed voice call, ‎Tap to call back

:(

I had a good idea to help us connect

‎Voice call, ‎48 sec

‎Voice call, ‎2 min

Cops fucked it.

If you truly worked at these places clearly the places didn’t have any impact whatsoever on ur perspective of addiction ‎

You seem to put down the severity of addiction

I’m saying you don’t understand how serious it is

If you worked at these places you’d know when someone is doing relapse preventative maintenance

Such an insane thing to say such an ignorant statement such disrespect towards me.
Listen to me right now. For days now… you have been questioning, passive aggressively making nasty comments, accusations that I’m avoiding or somethings changed.
Listen. Listen to this. I’m about to drive to my EMDR appointment at **********. Listen to this zac actually understand what I am saying. For days this has gone on.
I receive a message from you accusing me of “turning on you” and how it’s so clear all this stuff.
Instead of ignoring such blantent disrespect and getting in the car to treatment, I put the effort in to try to get you to understand.
After missing the appointment and after multiple heavy back and forths— you have the fucking nerve to say
“Right, but that doesn’t mean lash out at people who care about you”
Are you well? If you care about me the way you say you do you would not wind me up for the past five days. I don’t even know how long it’s been. You would respect my boundaries. You wouldn’t push this narrative that I am shutting you out and I’ve turned on you after all of these accusations, I miss my appointment and you have the nerve to tell meI shouldn’t lash out at you. Do you see how insane this is?

You keep stating over and over. I’m here. I’ve been here just because you are interacting with me. We are talking. Does not mean you are supporting me.

I’m physically shaking. I can not talk any longer. Exactly. Exactly. That is my point. Yes we have been talking intensely for a month but there are multiple sides of me that you haven’t seen you don’t know that is how you don’t know you love me yet. It would be such an insane thing to say. You love someone when you don’t know them I am telling youI cannot keep having this conversation and I don’t want to be accused of not liking you of shutting you out of turning on you I can’t do it. This has been two hours now. We’ve been going back-and-forth. I’ve missed my appointment. I need to get into the shower. I need to do meditation. I need to ground myself. I need for my Cortizone to drop.

There is a lot of love and a lot of care on both ends on both sides and that is like vehemently clear here, I (usually) love myself and lately that’s been slipping. For me to prioritise you over such an important therapy on my end that should speak volumes about how I feel about you. I am prioritising you over me. My mental health. So moving forward I really really really hope this conversation has made things a bit clearer. And I hope the accusations that I’ve turned on you I’m clearly angry at you. We have to talk about some unresolved issue I have towards you, cease. I really hope you can see where I’m coming from. It’s not like this process with the doctors goes on for months and months but there is a scale involved. It might be an Australian thing however it does take at least a fortnight. The first week is super super critical because often One can resolve the issue and you will not need to follow up with the second week right for me I’m in the very very early stages of the first week and I’m feeling frustrated that your kind of demanded attention and calls and passive aggressive comments especially I’m hearing daily now that not just your bookkeeper that you’re close friends think this about me and they attribute my character to a girl that ripped you off for $90,000. I have never once associated who you are intrinsically who you areand stooped so low and whilst I’m doing this for my mental health I’m receiving messages like this off of someone who is claiming they are supporting me and moving forward. I really hope you see clearly the big picture. ‎

These comments are not funny

Do not tell me to shut up.

After pestering me for days reaching out through text, WhatsApp, TikTok, etc you are now doing such a classic move of “oh hush you’re overreacting” are you serious?

Yes. I am to cease communications of tech.

Oh you’re possessive that’s fckn clear alright

And manipulative

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So you thought it was appropriate to passive-aggressively send multiple texts, TikToks, and WhatsApp msgs laughing about how your close friends think I'm like the girl who 'stole' — your words, though you told me you paid for her to send you solo videos — $90k from you? While I was actively communicating about my doctors and therapy?
You're accusing me of being like her, but you're doing it in a passive-aggressive way so there's no real validity behind you actually saying it outright. That's exactly the opposite of being direct. Every time you passive-aggressively bring her up, you're doing three things:
1. Testing my loyalty — seeing if I'll defend myself against an accusation I never earned.
2. Shifting blame — your choice to send her $90k was yours. That has nothing to do with me.
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3. Creating guilt — so I feel I owe you extra proof, extra patience, emotional labor while I'm already in active treatment.

Can you read back to me what I just wrote because I don’t even think you read it zac

That. Right there

That comment.

My friends were making comments… have your friends met me have your friends done extensive Google research on who I am?

And yet you shift accountability and responsibility by blaming them

My friends were making comments… the only information your friends have about me is what you have told them

And then you’ve got the nerve to turn around victimise yourself like I really should’ve kept the nasty horrible things they said about you to myself

The only thing your friends have got to go off about who I am as a person is what you have said about me to them

So it’s nothing about what your friends said and what you should or shouldn’t have kept from me. It’s clearly what you are telling your friends about me that is creating them to say something horribly nasty and negative about me.

Okay, okay let’s believe this lie for a second

If you said I am beautiful and that you’re into me and that I live in Australia what kind of friends do you have If they’re response to That is to say she sounds like the girl that stole $90,000 off of you?

Can’t wait to hear what you say about this

Of course

Let’s blame it on Australia

You’re not direct your passive aggressive and you’ve been passive aggressively saying this comparison for ages you know when I say so dramatic yet you literally cry. Vomit can’t handle if I don’t reach out to you. Call message off every single platform and make it so deep that we are now having a three hour long conversation, not even conversation just argument.

You are the single most dramatic person I’ve ever met. You have gone to Court. You have gone to federal court. You have a license plate that says judging you said that you look up to people like Perez Hilton and Michael Rapaport. You have the nerve to call me dramatic.

Absolutely hilarious

You’re not funny bro, it’s giving millennial fedora m’lady vibes

Well, yeah, you obviously wouldn’t know what that is. I forget how old you are. I don’t understand how you can even be a millennial.

No, you’re not bald

SoOooooooo dramatic

It’s fucking funny watching you try to toe the line of “this doesn’t bother me I don’t care it’s whatever” … “why aren’t you responding??? You’ve TURNED on me?! “ “I saw you’ve been active on instagram & tiktok”

Pick a lane

What are you fucking on aboutttttt

I don’t care TikTok whatever

I haven’t said that you’ve raged, but you’re absolutely not understanding my treatment showing any support and you have been making passive aggressive comments comparing me to a horrible person who I’ve never met

Well then, if you don’t think like that explain to me why you associate with people who think like that about me that I have not met

Have you got five friends? So I got those five people I saw in the video and I’ve also got the bookkeeper and you said your brother mentioned something as well.

It’s stacking up

I have heard you talk more shit on Brandon than ever also if you are drinking or intoxicated I don’t wanna have this conversation

Simply because I am in active recovery and it won’t be productive

Alright, so all these people that you hang out with have come to this conclusion, including your bookkeeper that I am like this girl

How would you like me to respond?

And the data and evidence they have is?

So. By you—

Tell them I said I do not care about who they are. Tell them, they can continue living their boring little lives drinking themselves into an early grave to run from their emotions and numb their experience to life, I don’t have to prove a single thing about my character to these clearly more than averagely flawed people because I know exactly who I am, I needn’t drugs nor alcohol to escape. That is the kindest way I can respond to all these people making accusations & assumptions about my character.

Take pills constantly

What the ever living fuck does that mean?

I’m ready to bounce

For good

I ONLY HAVE DATA YOU HAVE PROVIDED ABOUT HIM

I HAVE NOT MET BRANDON.

I AM GOING OFF OF WHAT YOU HAVE TOLD ME

Why am I like this??????????

I couldn’t imagine being 45 & so out of touch. I’m in active addiction treatment.

I am receiving nasty comments from you daily

I have provided doctors names therapy

You are weaponising the intimate detail details. I trusted to tell you and throwing it back in my face.

I say they are gonna drink themselves into an early grave something that is explicitly known about drinking alcohol in general

You tell me not to be mean about Brandon 🍫🍬🍭

Well, birds of a feather

I see myself

No, you’ve wanted communication for days where communicating I mean active addiction treatment

I’ve had assumptions and accusations thrown my way four days in fact for the entire month

I’m hearing all of these people from you. Have said I am like this girl Brianna.

There’s no need for what?

You can’t passive aggressively say hey my bookkeeper my brother my five close dearest friends think this is you and then expect me not to want to say something

I’m upset. I missed therapy yeah.

I wanna hop in the shower. I want to be understood. I want people to stop having such a horrible view of me and these are people I haven’t met.

I throw hate on these people

The only evidence and data that I have about these people is what they have said about me unprompted

You’re sitting there having a few drinks with them and they say that girl her character and who she is is just like that other girl

So you said she’s beautiful. I’m into her. She lives in Australia and their response was be careful she does not take $90,000 from you.

Yeah, right.

This is this is this is absolutely insane

I am not someone who fights. I am the person people call to resolve a fight.

I had to defend myself against several accusations. You continue to hurt my way that are inaccurate to who I am.

This conversation started by you saying you have turned on me

I go into extreme depths to show you exactly what is going on

I even miss therapy

Okay. What’s going on. Why am I feeling like I’m disappointing you, like I’m in trouble, like I’ve done something wrong? I don’t know how much more communication I can give.

I’m sleeping im sorry for whatev it us I did

Good. How are you just woke up

I couldn’t quite understand what you said just then they said what exactly? Now don’t get ripped offf like a Hayden girl?

No I couldn’t understand

Who Canadian girl

Is it a saying

True

Nice

Where’s that

Very nice

Would fucking love a coffee

Need to stop being paranoid we are good

Just doing heaps of stuff for my mental health

IDC honestly anywhere

Coffee + a 2 sweet tweets

Yeah perfect

Can always rely on the Coffey club

Fuck yeah

Miss yours too

I understand, what I’m asking is for you to grasp the severity of where I’m at mentally. So you know about addiction and mental health. Your brother & I relapsed like within days of each other and I did hear you say something to the effect of (talking about Jess) “she thinks having an adderall is bad for his sobriety”. So technically I’m not dual diagnosis but every addict in my opinion must be careful with any dual drugs. Opioids I’ve been clean since 2016. But/however alcohol is not great to relapse on because it makes me unwell. How is your brother doing? He’s been on my mind so much. He went from being with you and Jess to suddenly relapsing and then single and alone. I keep thinking about his mental state and how horrible it must be. For me I am so privileged, so lucky, so fucking grateful my country simply where I was born takes mental health seriously.

I’m glad he did. It would have been too hard to be alone in that state and I had hoped he had someone. It’s brutal he relapsed & you fight with her than took off. He wasn’t left with many if any resources. It’s not like he can go to a luxurious rehabilitation centre but that’s what he needs in my opinion.

So yeah until I’m back to square one I’m just following orders doctors are giving me. I speak with Dr hardy & Dr Shelby this afternoon and I spoke with Dr Williamson this morning.

Most days he smoked though as did you and you don’t mind a drink……..

Oh totally

I know. Everyone does

Mmhmmm

Good to be self aware

I am doing eft & emdr

What?

Oh my god

My life is on the line and all you can think about is a relationship.
Considering you used to work at a rehab I’d think you know the stats or data surrounding % of ppl who remain sober I will drop you in a split second. I am part of the data that shows it works, if you keep this bullshit up if you keep harassing me to talk lovey dovey and call when I’m trying to get through the day I’m done

TRY to think about someone else try to think from someone else’s point of view

I’m extremely frustrated you want all of my attention and you don’t seem to understand what I’m going through

You’re projecting. How can you say that? Why does everything have to feel like pulling teeth? Zac a relapse is serious to me. I have lots of important steps and safety measures so that I can get myself on the right track. Instead of understanding that and supporting me you are questioning my loyalty you’ve made several references to me being like some other girl who sent you videos for money in return, told your friends or they told you just like your bookkeeper that I’m like her. I don’t know what to do.
My journey with sobriety is important. If you can’t accept that I don’t know what to do.

You worked at a clinic. 2 correct?
Heard of ever heard of the term “relapse prevention” “relapse intervention” “DBT/CBT” “EMDR” all of these systems are emotional outreach during intense periods of struggling with mental health & addiction issues.

Zac. What I am dealing with, with the utmost respect, is up to me to share or not to share. You are requesting access for more information on what I’m going through and when I try to put a boundary in place in a kind way or in a firm way it seems like you will not take any of what I am communicating to you as an answer. If you would like more information on what I’m going through even though I have sent extensive information data I’ve provided my background my history my personal experiences, the only thing I can offer is perhaps turning to a friend or a therapist to discuss in depth how you’re feeling. You can use AI, you can speak with your former colleagues at cliffside or passages about inpatient treatment and what that entails. I can’t emotionally be held in this feedback loop to your daily negative thought patterns about me. I have given you more than enough information I have even gone so far as to give you my personal doctors names. And still it is not good enough for you. I have given you time schedules of exactly who I’m speaking to and what time, what it is that I am doing, what they are prescribing me as homework to get on the right track. And because I can’t be happy Ellie and put on a face you are spiralling giving me whiplash. It is causing me stress. I am feeling stressed. Are you able to accept that this has nothing to do with you? Are you able to accept that majority of my day is about getting back into a healthy routine as an outpatient? Are you able to accept that it is not healthy for me to be focused on anything other than getting back to square one?

I don’t feel comfortable doing an outpatient program with you making passive aggressive comments, questioning my actions, demanding to understand things and when provided information it being not good enough, and essentially having to listen to the narrative you are telling me is ongoing that is not true

Jesus Christ

I don’t know what to say. I’ve said everything I could. Insane accusations.

Your continued projection on what you deem to be the narrative is delusional. You think I have no one around that cares for my mental well being. I have my dad who is becoming very very very very close to calling you, I have my sister, my doctors, my friends. These are people that can help. What are you doing by helping you have caused more stress if anything

Projection. How is that a threat? Explain?

I can’t do this again not today. You love to argue and I cannot do it

It’s not good for my mental health

YES!

Unless you would like to offer support, then I cannot go around and around and around with passive aggressive comments, accusations, pressure, I can’t do it

Oh. My. God.

This is not what support is

You want a call? You just have to push and push and push

Support looks like “EMDR is fantastic and I’m happy you’re doing it”

“I hope today is better than yesterday”

“Just checking in…. Thinking about you 🫶🏼”

It’s a fucking relapse zac.

I don’t want to die.

Read the fucking data on this shit

You worked at these places yet relapse seems to be not that serious to you?!?????

It’s a fucking relapse!!!!!

And I’m not doing that. But I have been instructed to cease all activities involving tech, every upload is done by Holly for my socials. No video games. No doom scrolling. These are active practices in my doctors heavy recommendations they aren’t even recommended they’re fucking orders

I’ve skipped EMDR therapy because we’ve talked this long

Which I’m not blaming you. But it doesn’t help.

I HAVENT VEEB ON SOCIAL MEDIA AT APP

ALL

I AM SHOCKED YOU THUNK I BAVE BEEN???????????

That’s weird that you are seeing when I’m active online that’s strange and what I would deem as inappropriate

I don’t like that.

I don’t like that at all

BEFORE I FUCKING RELAPSED

and informed you heavily of my plans moving forward

Also…. I MISSED EMDR THERAPY…. does that matter to you???????????

Sound happy as a clam

I just feel frustrated doing circles every day because I’m not behaving in a way that you want me to

Hmm. I like talking to. Do you know what else I like? Being alive. Not waking up hungover with suicidal thoughts

If you’re well versed in psychology as you’ve stated & well versed in addiction then what does this mean?
“If missing Eye Movement Desensitization and Reprocessing therapy is important to you… it’s important to me 🤟”. Like?????????

I MISSED THE APPOINTMENT BECAYSE IVE BEEN ACTIVWTING MY FYCKING CORTISOL ARGHING WITH YIU TO TRY TO STOP VILLAINISING ME AND YNDERSTAND WHERE I AN AT

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What more can I do to coddle your feelings and put my own getting better aside?

Sorry to be blunt but my idk…my LIFE IS ON THE LINE

It’s begins …..

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Look at this. Trying to fight before I’ve even answered

Crazy head msging me

He brought up something from guess how long ago

Yes

But guess what he is referencing

It’s a time I cheated on him

This “Mitch Sutton” person….

I was 13.

This is legitimately 20 years ago.

I shit you not.

That’s a super Aussie term for like this is serous I’m being serious.

I didn’t even cheat!!!

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I won’t be able to hear you.

Text. It won’t download.

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So fucking lame

Drunk. High.

Bringing up something from 2 decades ago. I had to block him

You’re awake? I’m just finishing up homework on dbt

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Yeah, I was really confused. You didn’t know what that stood for but I was like I suppose it’s been ages.

Me too hopefully stay on this path. No I will stay on this path okay? I love you MWAH. MWAH.

Me too

Spoke with dad & Jacko no to the gambling deal

I have had a big day

You

Changed ur pro pic

I’m going to sleep in 3 hours or 4 hours I need to get to get back into a proper routine. I leave soon

SOOOO MANY FUCKING THERAPISTS

They do.

Babe go to sleep!!!!

I’ve lost my voice from lack of sleep lol

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Okay okay I’m sorry
Love you night night xxx

Hi u woke me up what’s the gig

Sure tomorrow. Also I’ve been meaning to say this. Let’s drop the Jeanie for a while especially with the therapy’s

Night night

Also thanks! Not quote awake y

What’s the collaboration Money? Look like?

Okay but roughly

Are we talking 10k or $500

Where abouts

Because promoting something like that haha idk

Yessssssss eye no

Sound gif

So you’ll take a cut slay

It all depends it would have to be a significant number

Midst a rebrand promoting lifest fishing ocean water nature

Fuck idk yeah a fucking lot

I jut know I won’t take it too difficult rebrand. Billls r meant to be for of promote 2 a month hardest part of rebrand

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Don’t push me

Maybe redo the message. I’m trying to be happy because the cops served him

Rascal flats is from the trial

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This will not download.

:(

I know.

Fucked

Yes but I’ve gotta go in to the shops and swap providers it takes a whole day and because I’ve got a contract with this provider idek if I can do it loo

Yesh

We don’t have that 😂

We’re renting/selling the house!!

Why would we have it installed just to leave

Idk

I’m not usually here

Bro

Just chill. I’m excited because I finally feel a tiny bit of reprieve

Dr hardy even suggested I play video games

Dismissing. Hate it

Don’t say that hahahahaha

Don’t make me upset I’m finally happy hahahahahhahaha

Okay well you can’t say you know what I do all day

Everyone loves me

Do you like stalk me how do you know what I do all day?

No just concerned lol

I do not wish that

Then why do u claim to know what I do all day

Omg

That scares me

Anyway I’m gunna do some meditation

Tis good for me

Fun fact: I have no fucking clue what a drop bear is
I thought it was a koala emoji

Hahahahhaa

Nightttttt

Meet you at the drop beer station

Is that part of the lore?

Huh

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Okay

Good night 😴

Happy?

The data resets in 10 days lol

Meh I’ll work around it

Yeah yeah it’ll be fine

Sooooooo dramatic 😂

No please I am mid game and mid call with Leki

Love you! Night night 💤

Why not?! Morning

Morning

Good I slept innnn

Thanks darling

Just woke up

Had therapy needed to sleep

Good! I feel like you don’t work much 😂

I had a dream about you!

Yeah yeah

You’re working 🙌🏼

My colleague

Sexual

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/p

Ugh I love this photo

Good morning my love

I slept soooo fuck good

Soooo fuck good

Can I please have a coffee and a cake of some sort, please baby? I’m gonna open that side because I wait for her to be a submissive bitch. Hi ch

Holy fuck

I just slept talk that out fucking our

Loud

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Did you see what I said at the end of that? This is the most single-handedly crazy thing I’ve ever fucking experienced.

Got no idea who I’m supposedly waiting for to be a submissive bitch

I know I was talking to a girl in my dream

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They had the best Coffey whatever you have ordered or can I have vanilla in it?

Thanks, Dad

Submissive bitch I am absolutely cracking the fuck up. I’m literally not getting over this. I can’t believe I said that out loud.

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Fuck her

Don’t tip her

Why can’t you ever be on my side

U don’t tip anyone 😂

Oh yeah American. What’s the difference between an Aussie & a canoe

Aussies don’t tip

Thank you baby